If I had come to this site the year before I got sober, they would have had to have a chronic 3 hours and under thread....and I really wanted to be sober and I was trying. The effort just didn't pay off for a while.
I know how discouraging it can be to feel like it just isn't going to happen no matter how hard I tried or how much I wanted it. And the people in my life who knew of my struggle and still believed in me? Yep it kinda made it worse at the time.
But the struggle was the way to where I am today. Don't know if you get into the philisophical bizzar reading stuff...but Hamlet's speach on fighting against the arrows of misfortune was helpful to me (yes I'm certifiably wierd).
There is honor in continuing to fight...hour by hour and day by day. We are here to believe in you when you cannot believe in your self....lean on us.
