Strange DN....about 30 minites ago I read a part of "the tao of sobriety" and it talked about how what brings us pleasure also brings us pain and something bout the reading got me in a little bit of a more settled place.
It just seems to me that learning how to deal with these kinds of feelings is a big part of staying sober...just don't drink may only get me so far in it.
I'm not big on "positive thinking" although it does have it's place and I think it's great if it works for someone....but having a more balanced understanding of letting my emotions happen without getting sucked under is going to be key to keeping my addiction at bay.
When I try to shut down to avoid feelings and stuff like that, I start not caring which leads to not caring if I'm not sober and almost like self punishment.
So I'm working on it and will continue....are you ok? Are you finding ways to deal with pain in your life DK? You always have a helpful perspective on things.