I'm starting to think I need to just abandon SR until I'm ready to get serious. Even though y'all are so very understanding, supportive, and helpful... here I am, drinking again, after only 1 day sober. And it was a conscious decision to drink. Nothing in particular set me off. Nothing happened.
I don't deserve your support. I don't deserve your kindness.
I should just leave and come back when I'm serious.