I'm glad my post helped.I appreciate it's a lot to absorb (my god I can ramble sometimes-LOL) but yeah-feeling 'good' really is a strange one for me-but I'm learning not to feel so afraid of it anymore and to have some faith that I will be okay no matter what life throws at me.It's a slow process though and I do understand wanting to drink in order for things to feel 'normal' again.It's just that for me-if I pick up again?I'll probably end up dying from it.It got that bad.You really do have to be 'done' with it and what gets us to that place seems to be different for each of us.
Julesxox