Hi Rose,
I'm new here, but can totally relate to what you say. I thought my husband had hit his rock bottom in November when I got the police to take him away and told him we were over. He spent 3 weeks away, in terrible pain and grief. I agreed to have him back and for 3 weeks he was so kind and so committed to his AA meetings etc. Now he is drinking again. I feel so desperate. I have to try and find the strength not to have him back this time. It's so hard. He is so cruel to me when he is drunk and thinks I am the unloving uncaring wife.
Keep reading the al-alon literature, it;s the only way I stay sane in these torturous days.
With love
Dove