the miracle that never happened....
Hi Friends,
Well as I expected the not drinking phase lasted only 8 days. I knew that it would only be short term. I guess what I was afraid of happened. I liked it so much when he was not drinking that now I am disappointed that it didn't last. I wish that I didn't care whether he drank or not, whether he was healthy or not, I guess I just wish I didn't care at all. What is it about when they are drinking that is so hurtful? Why do I feel the pain that he chooses to mask and not feel? How do I live with someone that chooses to continue to drink? Is there a way to avoid feeling this pain that I feel?
In addition to starting a fight about hubby picking up another 6 pack at noon, my son comes out and accuses me of being crazy for starting this fight. That hurts even more, and yes I know that the spouse often looks like the crazy one. Believe it or not I was feeling fine and cheerful earlier today.