Considering how many times I've relapsed since last December it's pretty amazing I've made it this far. I just wish I felt more like celebrating today. Don't know why but I woke up feeling 'lost' and very depressed. Yesterday was a rather sh!tty day for problems with college-bound daughter. Can't shake the feeling of impending doom - and not over my sobriety, but feels like a mental breakdown is on the horizon.
I'm not going to throw away my 30 days - too stubborn to do that, but just feel lost and afraid. Too many things coming to a head, mostly financial problems, and being unemployed right now doesn't pay the bills.
No matter what, I'm sober today and plan to stay that way. I know too well that drinking would only make the bad things worse.
feeling afraid and alone