Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Oxnard (The Nard), CA, USA.
Posts: 14,041
I think it takes time to find your strength. It did for me. I could get a few days clean and then use again. Eventually, I would practice the tools I was given me in recovery and was able able to put more clean time between use. Keep working at it, find supportive others and stick with them. It has gotten much better for me and I believe it can for you.