((helj))
I don't have much advice to offer, hopefully others will respond shortly with more AH or AW experience. I just wanted to connect and to let you know we are all here to listen and support you in your desire to gain peace and serenity.
If you are able to, I would strongly encourage going to Nar-Anon or Al-Anon meetings. They help me maintain my sanity and provide me with wonderful support.
Welcome!