Steph, I think that was the most revealing you have been regarding your intentions and what has been going on with you and your AH. I think if you would have posted this with this clarity a while back things would not have got so confusing! Just my opinion.
Good luck to you, i wish you well! I look forward to reading your posts again. Take care of yourself, and remember this site will always be here no matter what! Also if you feel ''swamped'' with replies you can always PM someone.
Blessings and serenity to all your family
Lily xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx