Joe... go in about any direction different from the one you've been going in.
Get a sponsor, go to meetings. SHARE.
Stand up in front of the group and tell them your thoughts, tell them what you're thinking, see what the response is after the meeting.
I use 'the power of the group' quite often when I'm trying to decide what to do. I think to myself, "What would the group think if I did this....?"
Keep coming back.