Comments, Suggestions, Advice, welcomed!!
41 year old male, 3rd attempt in AA to recover from alcoholism!!
Wife left in October after a series of phone calls were made threatening her and her boss to expose their affair (that was known about and actually encouraged/supported). Ended up in psych ward to take time off from work and beg plead for wife to come back (to absolutely no avail!!)
Came back to AA in January (14th is sobriety date). Started to do the work right away asap, did work on steps 1,2,3 with tape set "big book experienc" and with sponsor/step discussion tables. Did througough 4th step and included ALL things left out from previous times!! Shared all the garbage in 5th step with sponsor. Listened at tables about steps 6 &7, prayed for willingness to do things i dont want to do, dont do things i want to do.Working hard to make amends and then stopped at what seemed like some "easy" ones (work related, old high school nemesis who's now a cop) .. Got into a relationship at same time , realized not ready.. remain friends with possible benefits.
Missing ex like crazy obsessively, borderline stalking behavior, called her boss repeatedly without talking .. old resentments coming up (he refused to talk when 9th step amends attempted)
Right before six months stopped praying on knees and program has seem to go to "****" .. slacking on meeting... 2 months behind on mortgage, house a pigsty, got in accident in june got ticket for fleeing scene of accident (actually left car on side of highway and other party left the scene)
obviously need serious help but which/what direction would you reccomend?
HELP??