I'm so sorry you have to go through this Hope. It's just so darn sad and there's nothing we can do. Thats the hard part for me cause I AM a fixer. I do know that I can't fix this situation and its getting easier for me to step aside. I even have to stop thinking about Chris at times. Everytime the phone rings I'm hoping its him just calling to say "hi"......but somewhere deep inside me I feel like somethings wrong and he's just keeping me out of it for now. Thats a good thing on his part and hopefully someday he can recovery and be happy....but for now I am stepping aside to see how long he can go without calling his dad or me. We have stood by him for years and I do feel its time for him to contact us. I'm being really stubborn but thats the way it is....big hugs, Bonnie