Thanks all. It's just sad to feel so low that I want/need that validation from HIM. It's sickening really. I've been feeling really good and calm about the decision to leave him, but these underlying feelings...man, they hit me like a punch to the stomach. There are so many days when I look at him and can’t believe I ever married him. Then today I feel like I need his need for me to make me feel good. Reminds me that I’m still wearing that codie hat loud and proud. Ughhh…