Originally Posted by
i4getsm 
I NEED him to say he's sorry. I NEED him to try to come crawling back. It's not because I want him back (because I don't), but I HATE feeling like the one that was dumped. It should feel like I dumped him, but for whatever reason I don't feel that way. In my mind, I think this is one of the ways that I'm still validating my worth through him. I mean, if he doesn't want me, who will?
That's probably a pretty important realization for you. One that can lead you to a deeper understanding of yourself which in turn can lead you to a better you and better life. {hugs}
Sure, it would be nice to hear my xAH acknowledge all the hurt he has done to me, to his daughters, to himself. Maybe some day xAH will get into recovery and maybe as part of his 4th step he will get there. But that is his journey to make. For me, I have forgiven him for all those hurts. That is what I needed to do for me.