(((Sleepy)))
I don't know about you being sucked back in. I still think you've come a long way. I, too, remember not doing important things when I was active.
Personally, if I were in your shoes, I would do the same thing. I don't think there's a right or wrong in this situation. You're doing what feels right to YOU, and that's what matters. Don't be too hard on yourself. You've come a long way, and taking her to the doctor doesn't mean you have to be dragged back into the whole thing.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy