Originally Posted by
outtolunch 
In my heart, I agree with you.
And yet, it feels like crossing some invisible line.
I can Totally understand that, It can also depend on maybe
how you look at it. I'm not going to be the one who lets
her get away with stealing money to buy her heroin.
IF she is going to self destruct, hurt herself, etc. I'm not
going to be okay with that, and I'm not going to let her
steal money from other people to dig her grave.
That is a gift you can give to her not a punishment.
IF I fell back into my cutting and started stealing razor blades
from stores again, which is what I used to do, I would hope
my Mom or anyone would turn me in. I stole ipecac for my
eating disorder, for some dumb reason I didn't like to buy
blades or ipecac, the thrill of the death chase excited me.
But to be perfectly honest with you each time I was stealing
the blades, the ipecac, as thrilling as it was, a part of me was
begging for someone, anyone to catch me, because I didn't
know how to stop myself. I knew each time I was playing with
my life. But..... For me whatever it took, was my mission...
I only use those examples because that's when I stole, never did
it for drugs, so I can relate to the stealing part, being that desperate.
I think sometimes when people are on a mission of self destruction,
the lines can change a little bit. I can understand about loyalty.
I would die for my family, but I won't stand by and watch them.
I do understand your thoughts though..
I am sorry you are even having to go through this..
More than you know..
:ghug2