The buzz had also left me long before I stopped drinking, for a long time I drank to feel well again, only once I'd the drink on board would I feel normal.
Just before I stopped I would drink roughly a half bottle of vodka before trying to keep some food down.
Its funny how your mind plays tricks on you though, as I was doing my wee lass's bath tonight, I was thinking " a couple of wee voddies and an early night would be lovely" 2 wee drinks just to mellow me out and make me feel good.
Suffice to say I got through that urge and I'm ok but for goodness sake its only 10 weeks since I was so ill I could hardly function without a drink, where does the thought that it would mellow me out come from.
Just proves I've a lot of learning still to do I suppose.