Congratulations on a wise decision - sounds like you're getting off the merry-go-round just in time. I kept going until I left a path of destruction I still can't make right. You sound very positive, not feeling sorry for yourself or full of dread. That's so important. It will be interesting to see how different your life can be without the anesthesia. I hope your wife will come to see things your way. Enjoy your time together. Love, Joanie