There really was no specific reason to talk to him. I was lonely and wanted to hear his voice. The irrational part of me wants to go home but in my fantasy, my home is a place filled with love and that's just not what is in my house right now.
He is using his old tricks by trying to keep me from my family. The only family I have is my daughter and granddaughter and that's it. Years ago he did this to me to keep control, now he's wanting to do it again. There is no reasoning with him, it's just insanity.
I do need to make some sort of plan, I just don't have the strength to figure anything out right now. I am going to a therapist on the 21st, so that will start to help.
I feel on edge because all my belongings are at the house, yet I have no place to take them to. My daughter lives in a small mobile home, so I can't leave everything here. I will have to find a storage unit somewhere or something.
Right now, it's a struggle to get showered and dressed every day.