Lovs,
There have several times in my life where I have had to follow your plan of "faking it till I make it" and it truly is the right path to take. Even if you don't have a great time, you are taking care of YOU and walking the walk that will get you to the other side. Take anything with you that you need to nurture yourself--good pillow, good book, good music, yummy food. Be grateful for the friends who support you and are including you in their weekend plans. Leave your cell phone off so that his texts don't interfere with the new life you are creating. Put a hand up to all possible "downers" that he might bring to your little vacation. You are doing just great, even if you aren't feeling it in your heart yet.
