LovToLaff it sounds as if you are ready to stop the codie/addict dance-
Sorry that you are going through so much pain right now! "This too shall pass"
Stay strong and keep yourself moving in the right direction-Be gentle with yourself
as it is ok to feel the way that you do however just remember we leave/end when
we are ready and we learn from things such as this or at least we hope too.
Please know that you are not alone and we are here to support you the best
we can.
I did the dance with my XABF for about 2 years all the while ignoring my gut! I
came to realize that was not a good choice for me-Today I no longer ignore
my gut or those small voices in my head that tell me "this is not a good choice"
I have this list and it really helped!
About Gut Feelings
Survival instincts we were born with
Their job is to keep us alive
They are personal to each individual
No need to compare as they may be opposite of someone else's gut feelings
What may be safe for you may not be for your friend, co-worker and vice versa
They are either good or bad (indifferent can be put in the good category)
You have them about every person, place and situation in your life
The key is to listen, feel, see and follow them when they are strongest
Following them always is a great idea but rarely done
Take care of you! Take a nice bubbly bath, go for a walk, do some fun things all
for
YOU!
You deserve it!
P.S. Picking up the phone is only going to make it harder on you, just do not answer it sweets!
And when you are really ready although I never felt it fair you may want to change your
phone number. It brought a lot of peace to me!