hi
finally I had a little energy and motivation to write. I've been tired and lazy and withdrawn today. this has made me more tired and lazy and LONELY. no suprise there.
so it's a late start. We can start the day over right in the middle of the day. I will try to do that right now.
I will try to force myself to move forward
I will try to force myself to stay awake
I will try to force myself to be interested in other people
I will try to force myself to TASTE the breath I'm breathing right now
this laziness grows into more laziness and I can and will overcome it, today. and then the laziness grows into boredom. and boredom is one of my biggest GATES back to using.
so I'm waking up. I'm being re-born. right now. I will be active in my life today. My new life is part of my recovery. taking the action and practicing new ways of living is vital for me. going to meetings can be a good thing, but changing my life is the final exam.
it's amazing how a little writing and reading on this website can help. i'm grateful to be fortunate to have this wonderful resource.
thanks for listening