Hi,
Oh yes, please listen to Smoke. There is a lot of love and caring there.
I would like to share with you the terrible things I did when I was drinking, but there is not enough room on the board. Believe me I felt so quilty and believed that I deserved having the crap knocked out of me by my "X."
It was in the meetings of Alanon and AA that I learned to love myself. What I did was not who I was. I did what I did to survive. There is not a Book of Brownie Points that rates you #1 Mom or #2 or #3. I did the best I could...Lord, how I hurt. This is a sickness of the soul.
Go to meetings, like Smoke suggests, and let the people love you. We do!
Keep your eyes on yourself!
My love, Pickle
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