Originally Posted by ksplash5

i'll have to work this out. I have to go through the pain. it hurts and I WILL BE OK. I can't depend on someone like this. funny...in my addiction I couldn't have given a rats ass. I figured if she didn't want me then she could just go and I'd be fine. now that i'm not using I'm a basket case. and I'm living in her house. I mean I call it mine now, but if something happens and it don't work out then i'm out.

for now I have to feel my pain. it hurts. it's good for me, however to simply b e with this hurt. when I'm on my deathbed someday I won't be thinking about this day. I will be OK.