Hang in there, NYC.
If at all possible, just stick to your essential footwork of life, whatever that is. Really try to be in the now.
I have recently been struggling with many of the feelings you describe and I find them unusual for me and awkward -- not to mention miserable!
But sharing about it helped and kind of broke the seal. You might find the same having opened up.
Being in the NOW was the biggest help for me. I was very much lamenting past situations and fearing the future (angry that I won't get what I want). Instead of trying to work all that out (come to peace with past and trust future), I realized I was not focusing on the PRESENT. So I broke it down to an hour at a time. I feel like I might be back up to one day at a time but I'm not rushing it.
In the present, I'm okay.
BTW, for me it had gone beyond feeling feelings (which is so important) and slipped into some old thinking pattern that is NOT healthy for me. So that's why it was time for me to bust in with something simple.
(((((hugs))))))
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