Debbie

I have never been to an Al-Anon meeting yet. I was trying to find a local meeting and stumbled across this site and I am glad I did. I don't feel so alone.

My SO has been drinking ever since I met him. In and out of rehab, lost his license, etc. I guess some of you know the story. I realize now that I am the enabler. Always forgiving him and thinking he can do it on his own. He did well for 5 years and now he is drinking again.

Well, I finally decided I have had enough. I told him the other night that I fear for everyone, him included but I cannot help him anymore. He is on his own. I pray for him to find his way, and I hope he does but I know I can't live like this anymore.

I now need to take care of me, worry about me, I know I am not the cause of his drinking even if he does make me feel like I am. I don't force that alcohol to his lips.

Anyway, thanks for letting me share. I hope to find a meeting soon and I hope that will help along with this.

Thanks for listening.

I was going to edit but thought never mind...lol



[This message has been edited by barbiedeb (edited March 24, 2002).]