interestingly enough- i managed to aprehend a PLANNED relapse not so long ago- at around 50 days- i knew where iwas going and what i was planning and i took the steps i needed to to avoid it happening- this one was not planned- if that makes sense? i seemed to just end up drinking with out ANY of the pre meditative thoughts id had the first time round- i am a fool for thinking it would be so easy
, just trying to make sense of what was going on this time i guess