I do enjoy it while I'm inebriated, but I certainly don't enjoy the ****** feeling afterwards (which nowadays tends to last longer than the actual amount of time spent drinking)...whether it's extreme nausea or just feeling terrible about my body, and having to face up to my problems again. Last time I drank beer I felt pretty sluggish/gross afterwards, and went to the gym to alleviate the feeling...that felt fantastic, but what if I simply went for my health/well-being, not to "fix" a binge? The fact that I do still enjoy drinking to an extent is why I keep slipping, but I'm trying to find more reasons to stay sober...because if I feel like I'm "missing out" by *not* drinking, that's when I have to ask myself - what's missing in my sober life? If I am drinking to escape, what if had reasons to stay instead?