GBL you are where I was at about 5-10 years before I finally quit, I took it right to the edge before I finally realized that I had to quit.
As Astro shared, I could have written that post 5-10 years before I quit. I spent a lot of years trying to quit by simply not drinking, I always wound up drinking again and it kept getting worse and never better.
I reached the point where I had to drink every day just to function, I had to go into detox in order to stop, in order to stay stopped I had to get help, I used a program.
Most people who stay stopped work a program of some sort, I used AA, thanks to the program of AA not only have I been sober for almost 2 years, but due to working the steps the obsession to drink is gone.
There are several programs of recovery, I would encourage you to check them out. You are not alone with this problem, why fight it alone?