Obsessed, I was on my way out the door when I replied earlier..but I wanted to add that I believe Lauren knows you love her...I think the thing really deep down for me was accepting that there was nothing I could fix or change....... it wasn't my job to fix this one and that I needed to believe that she will eventually figure it out.
Do you have someone you can talk to face to face....I spent a year when I was deep in my mourning process with my AD, and it really helped me to work through the pain I was experiencing about who she used to be and who she had become, and all those emotions a parent feels seeing their child become lost and in danger. ( and then my codie recovery was the magic (ongoing and forever, apparently
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Your love for your daughter is so beautiful, and you did the hard but right thing, sending her away.
I believe her HP has her and will watch over as she learns to find her way...I mean, she WALKED away from that car accident, Thank You God
I just hate to see you suffering so much...hugs , grateful