Hi Mystique and welcome!
Please scroll throught the various forums especially Jay's Power post's on this forum. Unfortunatly, no one can answer the question for you. That you have to do yourself. It's often said, if you think you have a problem you probably do. If that's the case then you have to decide what your going to do?
You have many choices should you decide your an alcoholic... hope that didn't hurt to much. But it's okay, you can be okay, and you will have a bunch of people here supporting you in what ever you decide you must do, be it quit, try moderation, or continue what your doing until your answer is clear.
Hope you will find the answer your looking for, and you don't have to go it alone. Glad your found us!