(better late than never is my motto...
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Jewelz,
Don't ever doubt that there is hope, hope and faith are 2 things I rely on.
I have a brother who began drinking and using drugs at the age of 15. He stopped and began recovery, and AA when he was 35. So, see? There's always hope. I had my doubts that he would stay clean and sober, but you know what? He has, AND he even quit smoking!
Whatever the reasons why, like Ann said, your sister has her H.P. watching out for her, and he's watching out for you, too.
It's hard to watch people, family, we are so close to spiral downward, but we have to have faith that it will turn out just as God intends.
It's that faith part that I had a hard time with, in the beginning.
You take care of you, Jewelz, how about attending some extra meetings? Heaven knows they always help me when I feel some issues getting me down.
Hugs, and hugs,