Sobergirl I just read this entire thread, I have been moved close to tears a few times as I have seen you do all the right things!
Zanthos said it well:
However, thinking about drinking, even really badly wanting to drink, and then:
posting a message in a recovery forum
calling friends in AA
reaching out and asking for help
continuing to go to meetings
seeking advice and guidance
avoiding an unhealthy situation
realizing that recovery is more important than certain feelings one is having...
I say "Wow!" Someone has learned that alcohol is not the answer. That's working a great program!
Sobergirl I am very thankful I was already married when I got sober, I do not want to even try to imagine adding the dating game into the equation, it was hard enough as it was for me.
Big BIG hugs for you, keep following those suggestions, keep a bag with you in case your butt falls off wanting a drink, that way you can put your butt in the bag and take it to a meeting instead of to the liquor store!!!!