Wolf, I think you're making progress - at least you didn't get up, have a "hair of the dog" & go off on a binge like I've done in the past. You came right here today - probably feeling miserable - and posted about what happened, a very good sign. I have almost 4 months sober, but what it took to get here is ridiculous. I finally stopped with the remorse and guilt. They served their purpose in the beginning, but after that it's just damaging to keep kicking yourself. You know what you have to do, you know you will do it - just a question of when.