Slipped.
underacheiver
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: hull
Posts: 22
Slipped.
I drank last night after 4 weeks sober.
I ask myself why?
Was it because it was a nice sunny afternoon and a Beer was just the thing?
Nope,it was because i'm an alcoholic.
Maybe a nice 4 pack of weak alcohol,who was i trying to kid?
12 strong cans and a half bottle of vodka later i'm throwing money at poker sites,shouting at my girlfriend putting my fist through a door and throwing a bottle of vodka at the wall,seem like unreasonable behavior to anyone?
The remorse is unbearable.
I ask myself why?
Was it because it was a nice sunny afternoon and a Beer was just the thing?
Nope,it was because i'm an alcoholic.
Maybe a nice 4 pack of weak alcohol,who was i trying to kid?
12 strong cans and a half bottle of vodka later i'm throwing money at poker sites,shouting at my girlfriend putting my fist through a door and throwing a bottle of vodka at the wall,seem like unreasonable behavior to anyone?
The remorse is unbearable.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Many alcoholics have false starts before
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What is your plan for a new start?
Yes! you too can recover and emjoy life.
Millions of us do just that daily.
we found a solution to our disease.
What is your plan for a new start?
Yes! you too can recover and emjoy life.
Millions of us do just that daily.
underacheiver
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: hull
Posts: 22
Plan?
I will go to an AA meeting this evening,i started going a month ago but stopped after 2 weeks,i will try harder this time and not be so lazy.I have learned from this experience,and next time i think about a drink i will think back to the last time i had a drink.
I will go to an AA meeting this evening,i started going a month ago but stopped after 2 weeks,i will try harder this time and not be so lazy.I have learned from this experience,and next time i think about a drink i will think back to the last time i had a drink.
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Wolf, I think you're making progress - at least you didn't get up, have a "hair of the dog" & go off on a binge like I've done in the past. You came right here today - probably feeling miserable - and posted about what happened, a very good sign. I have almost 4 months sober, but what it took to get here is ridiculous. I finally stopped with the remorse and guilt. They served their purpose in the beginning, but after that it's just damaging to keep kicking yourself. You know what you have to do, you know you will do it - just a question of when.
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