FallingUp,
Sorry, you're NOT falling down, or just Falling....it seems.
I know for me, my sobriety came from somewhere deep inside, and for that I'm very lucky and I pray it stays that way. I went to bars to drink, but for other reasons too, and the things I enjoyed doing (lol, I just typed drinking instead of "doing", go figure!) in those settings are still things I enjoy. I'm a sports lovin', music lovin, pool playin', and yeah, trivia too, kinda gal. I feel a little odd now in a bar, and I will say I did enjoy the taste of cold beer, but I am able to tell myself that I just am not able to drink and know the outcome and so it is almost like I've come to learn that it's like touching a hot stove, ok, others have super-hero powers and CAN touch the stove and not get burned, but darn, I WILL get burned, maybe not today, but surely I will. So if I want to still enjoy the things I enjoyed while drinking (like watching the RedSox kick Yankee butt!) well, I just have to learn to enjoy them without, and I do, but I'll admit, I can tell it will take time to feel at ease, not because I'm temped but because everything went together without question...and now the beer has been taken out, and now we don't make fools out of ourselves. For me, avoiding alcohol would be harder than facing it, I think. I just think about how great it feels to be sober each and every day, and I think of some horror story that involved drinking (and didn't they ALL?), and I'm fine. I still tip well at least, I just don't tip OVER as well!
I'm proud of you for going and kicking butt! I'm glad your husband gave you a pat on the back too, I know how much that can mean!
Sorry to ramble!
Karen