Thank you both for your comments - some know of my decision, and again, are very supportive and will abstain from asking, but it's the others that I'm not that close to, that I don't talk to daily, or even weekly.
You're right - I have come to realize that essentially they don't care what you do, they worry about their own drink. I think I'm being overly sensitive and paranoid to my own issues and observations. I notice everything now (and remember!!).
I've been secluding myself from alot of people recently, to rsist temptations and to get my head straight, so maybe I'm just not ready to venture out of my coccoon just yet, so this will be good exposure.
Taz - I could give you a team of one-armed men and women - they play volley ball with a drink! Still not clear on we've finished a game with that one!