Thanks for these great points Barb, Tazman and Zanthos - thanks for keeping on helping me, even though I've been falling down so many times...
I'm going to try and put in practice your 6 point plan Tazman - thanks for this. I've printed out these replies and am going to keep them with me...
I've been wondering perhaps whether I need to make some really major, fundamental changes too. So many things in my life at the moment are making me want to drink - even my accommodation here in London makes me want to go out and drink rather than stay at home. I'm thinking of applying for a job that's come up way out in the country, out of London, to try and generate some change in my life - maybe if I lived in the country I could have a dog or a cat (my landlord won't allow it here in my tiny rented flat in London) and I'm sure that may help me too...
Thanks for bearing with me... I feel desperately sick with my alcoholism but I want to surrender to my recovery... (thanks for that great point, Barb)
Paddington