Today is the day that I go to the meeting to find out what options I have if I get a divorce. I'm anxious to find out. I am definitely trying to find as much of the old me as I can. I can no longer live day to day not knowing what to expect so I am going to start acting. I don't know how long this will take but every day is a day closer. I think the biggest thing for me right now is making choices for me and for my kids. I dont have time anymore to worry about trying to make AH happy because I know I cant do that for him. Its nothing but a waste of time.