I don't know about "controlled" drinking. I'd tried for months to control my drinking but could not. I always ended up drunk and out of control. The only way for me was complete abstinance. I just cannot have "just one or two" drinks. I also read something from one of the members here: when I enjoyed my drinking I wasn't controlling it, and when I was controlling it I wasn't enjoying it. That makes sense to me.
I hope you can find what you are looking for, whether it is 'controlled' drinking or complete abstinence.
Keep coming back here. You'll find lots of support and experience and hope.
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