I have found myself watching alcohol commercials and thinking "that's not bad" myself. So far (thank god) I have not had much thought or obsession to pick up a drink but I am still an alcoholic and even though I think a beer would be good I know that I cannot control it and therefore I cannot have it. I would suggest that if you are in AA and have a sponsor you talk to them about your relapse and get it out to someone. That resentment could keep you relapsing and keeping it from your husband might just eat you alive. I would let someone with some time sober know what you're feeling and let them help you through it. that is the beauty of AA, drunks helping other drunks... you just need to reach out to them... My 2 cents...