I am starting to believe that AA is actually making my life worse.
Yeah, AA is hell on a drinking career, I will agree.
Tib -
Is it possible you're one of those with 'problem other than alcohol' and alcohol along with the need to relapse ... is more connected to some other brain chemistry thing?
I'm not talking a 'need to relapse' like ...
oh I need to fail at something...
I'm talking the BODY simply will NOT allow the sensation of not being sedated to continue?
Have you considered going to a medical professional for evaluation on brain chemistry?
Maybe it's another disorder?
I dunno.
I know several people who really want to quit - but they don't.
When it gets to that point - I often think it's their bodies making them do it more than a lack of personal control. That they can no more not drink than I can not have chocolate on PMS week.
There's mental health practitioners who can evaluate that stuff.
Just trying to help, hon.