Freedom, yes I have learned something from my many treatments and AA meetings. I learned I drink because I hate life and drinking gives me a short term peace. The only problem is the consequences. The arrests, the suicidal thoughts, E.R. trips and thousands of dollars wasted. I have learned that I suffer from real depression. Not the alcohol withdrawal type but the real thing. I have learned that I could die from my alcohol/drug addiction.
The sad part is that I accept that. I learned that some people NEVER recover from addiction. I admit that I do enjoy this web site and it seems to help a bit. I gave AA a chance and now it's time to wake up and try something different. I would love to go to a rehab facility that doesn't use the 12 step philosophy. Of course my limited funds prevents me from doing that. I'm even willing to give organized religion a chance. I'm shaking like a leaf as I write this. Ah the joys of alcohol withdrawal.
Tiburon