Hey Jes!
I'm glad you checked in now. And I'm happy to hear you made it to day 2, and are feeling a little better. I think you should ditch the guilt and treat yourself very gently. I don't know what guilt is good for. Contemplation about how you could do things better has a place, I think. But guilt doesn't help you. In fact, I think it can lead back to drinking. Be gentle with yourself.
Have you found a meeting?