I just wanted to say thank you to all of you for being here and sharing your story. So as many of you know I recieved a job in my degree the other day and I am losing weight(down 12lbs) and feeling pretty ok here lately. Well today I was enjoying the nice beautiful weather and having a great day untill I was driving home from work and a song came on that reminded me of the ex and the tears just started and I could not turn them off. So I got home and I cried it out and just let myself feel the emotions and then I stopped and took the advice that many have given on here.
I called a friend and said hey lets go to the park and walk. So we went and then watched a baseball game that was going on and I just got home and feel so much better!!! I also jumped on here and started reading some stories to remind me of how much I used to hurt like so many our hurting on here that are still in the tornado of alcoholism. I hate that so many are still going through it. These stories really make me sad and it takes me back to when i was in the tornado and I thank God that I no longer have to deal with these issues. Yes I miss the good times(and there were many) but when I read these stories it puts me right back into those dark days.
What I am trying to say is that for all of you that are going through this storm right now I understand. I have been there and man even though I don't know you personally I feel your pain. I am proof that things can turn around. Yes there are still sad moments but at least the moments pass and I can feel a sense of relief again. I stayed with my abf for a long time because I feared change so bad. I thought that we were different, I thought he was different and i could not imagine my life without him. I made myself think that he was not that bad(denial big time) but reading your stories on here and realizing that they are all the same as mine confirms for me that I was really in a bad situation.
Please keep coming back and hopefully one day you can be closer to where I am right now. If you don't believe me that my situation was crazy just click on my name and you can read up to my very first post. I was lost and now I am starting to find myself again. Thank you.
