I'm new here but wanted to write that I can totally relate to this post. I too wonder if my AH is truly in "recovery" or if he's just doing it so I don't kick him out again. Does he really think he's an alcoholic, or does just say that so that *I* will feel better?
I'm on the merry-go-round right now too. AH is definitely a "dry drunk". I'm trying to change myself and stop engaging him. Of course, tonight I fell off the wagon, so to speak, by allowing myself to be pulled into yet another stupid fight. Now I'm left wondering will he drink tonight because of our fight?
Thank you for posting this. Shannon