The concept of never drinking again is a hard pill to swallow. My entire life revolved around alcohol. To me, life without it seemed impossible. I found out I was wrong. I can live without booze and I don't miss it one bit.
My life is better sober than it ever was drunk. It takes time to get to the point of appreciating sobriety. Hence, one day at a time. One day is an easier concept than... never. It boils down to facts. We can't go back in time to recapture a moment. Fact. Alcoholism is progressive. It will continue to grow as long as we continue to feed it. There is no getting around it. If you truly want to live a sober life, you have to let go of false hope. Alcoholics can not drink, not even a little bit. The sooner we can accept who we are and that we need to make changes, the sooner we can get better.