Jen I could not relate to you more. I have friends that are the same way. I have friends that I knew if I was going to hang out with them I would def black out and drink until 4am.
Those friends also caused a lot of issues with my fiance bc he knew how we were. You do what is best for you. Your loved ones need to support you as I am seriously learning....I know when I hung out with those friends I never felt good about myself and didn't really enjoy it at all. I just enjoyed the alcohol and the fact I was not being judged.
I was also scared on changing my lifestyle bc everyone I know is a drinker in the city scene. It's all worth it though... You'd be suprised how many ppl have told me now that they wish they could stop or know they should.