NA felt weird for me at first, too. But I desperately wanted to stay clean, and NA seemed to be the only thing that would work. I had tried other things that did not work. I had tried staying clean on my own, which didn't work. Because I was desperate, I was willing to listen and give NA a chance. It was the best decision I have made in my life. NA has given me my life back. I hope you give it a chance too, and follow the suggestions, such as going to meetings, working the steps, getting a sponsor...